. myNoise background noise generator
. Everything game
» . “wherever you are, and whoever you are, and whatever you are: you’re in the middle.… Your senses extend a certain direction, in all directions, and therefore give you the impression of being in the middle. (Because the definition of a person is where you look from.) Everything in the world feels like that.”
. As I get older, I’ve started to recognize new connections between the things I’ve been curious about for… ever.
» . An example: between self-centerdness and design process — how our natural tendency to ignore other people’s perspectives can be overcome by actively seeking feedback.
. Intentions vs. goals. No matter the vocabulary, being somehow purposeful in your own decision-making is design.
» . For me, the word ‘goal’ seems to connect with the most people in capturing whatever that purpose/intention/preferred-situation may be.
. The word ‘founder’ — and the startup-y prioritization of communicating “I’m a person who started a business” — feels pretty gross to me.
. Writing six-word stories with BFI at Denny Middle School. A fun, easy exercise in the power of limitations. That also highlights how different people can interpret the same thing differently. Examples from today: 1. “I called you my best friend.” and 2. “Bang, bang, bang, bang, bang. BOOM.”
. First trip to the Seattle Bouldering Project.
» . Even if I try a new thing and I’m not into it, I still tend to enjoy having-experienced it. It’s interesting to me that people are interested in [super-specific sub-culture] in the first place. And the way things are designed in response to that super-specific environment (in this case: how the chalk bags seal themselves by twisting closed, or how the color of the hand/footholds indicates the difficulty).
. Trend List, graphic design trends blog
. Northwest Association of Independent Schools. For the (middle school + design/digital-media) job search.
. So far, it really feels like 2017 is going to be the year when it all comes together.
. I essentially always end up regretting freelancing over the weekend.
. “From the age of 6 I had a mania for drawing the shapes of things. When I was 50 I had published a universe of designs.… When I am 80 you will see real progress. At 90 I shall have cut my way deeply into the mystery of life itself.… At 110, everything I create — a dot, a line — will jump to life as never before.”
. FlipBooKit handcrank animation machine
. Maybe the biggest reason I love Seattle is the potential. It feels like so many of my goals are within reach here.
» . Potential, abstractly, is one of the driving forces of my life. It’s why I cruise IMDb to see what movies are on the horizon. And why I love teaching and design.
Everyone is a designer. Totally, yes. But I think this essay is misleading. It’s trying to zoom out on the definition of design (which I appreciate), but it’s still narrowly using the word ‘design’ as a synonym of just one kind of design (digital product design).
» . For me, “Everyone is a designer” means potentially everywhere, all the time. A person making a sandwich is a designer.
. When anyone says “I’m a designer,” I think the appropriate response is: “Of what?”
. Djokson, LEGO character builder
. It continues to baffle me how a small shift in my confidence in any situation seems to affect the outcome (teaching, any conversation, conversations with women, boxing). I wish I’d figured this out when I was younger.
» . My favorite thing about these movies is that they’ve stuck to their central limitation: anything cool that happens must involve a car. The limitation makes it what it is.
» . Although, there’s some BS here (e.g. “The… wolf is facing forward because we want to honor the past we are proud of, without forgetting it.”)
» . I think branding BS is intended for the client, to give them a sense of having gotten their money’s worth.
» . What is branding BS? Maybe… any rationalization that sounds credible, but the design doesn’t actually communicate those ideas (independently of designer’s explanation).
. Getting back to Seattle, boxing was the thing I looked forward to most.
. Omaha friends recharge my confidence.
. I won’t ever have a tombstone, but if I did, I wouldn’t mind if it read: “He wasn’t full of shit.”
. → Seattle
» . I didn’t see everyone I wish I could’ve on this trip. But that was intentional, the opportunity cost for actually enjoying these vacations. I’ll catch them next time.
» . I drove 275 miles in Omaha in the last four days. In Seattle, I drive ≈ 125 miles/month.
. For me, ‘award-winning’ and ‘online backlash’ are meaningless designations.
. Thinking about why I keep coming back to teaching. It checks the most important intangible job boxes for me: 1. it’s engaging/fun/satisfying/worthwhile (I get a lot from it), and 2. I feel suited to do it (I have a lot to give).
. Sometime over the last year, I hit the tipping point where Seattle feels more like home than Omaha.
» . Omaha’s changed quite a bit since I left (2 ½ years ago). A feeling based mostly on (weirdly) stores and restaurants that’ve opened, closed, or moved.
. Driving through Elkhorn, I hit a coyote and probably killed it. The first time I’ve ever hit an animal that size.
. Turn signals (blinkers) are proactive communication.
. It’s tricky to talk about why I like Seattle without comparing it negatively to Omaha (weather, mentality, culture, opportunity, religiousness).
. There’s too much eating on my trips to Omaha. Feeling pretty gross.
. Based entirely on vibes, I think most people probably don’t get this site (which is cool). But with the people that do, it’s been a meaningful filter for starting and maintaining the realest of connections.
. I miss shopping at Target.
. Radical candor (care personally + challenge directly). The same approach as the teaching concept of the ‘warm demander’.
. Does ‘third time’s the charm’ indicate something special about having two rounds of feedback?
. I think a reason I like RSS so much is that — since it collects all the things I’m into (pop culture, design, movies, basketball, longform journalism, LEGO, etc.) in one place — it’s a constantly-renewing opportunity to remix ideas.
. People in Omaha make more eye contact with strangers than people in Seattle. No doubt about it.
. → Omaha
. Brave private web browser
. A bonus of using Kirby for this new site is that I can edit it offline when I’m traveling (since the pages are just text files).
» . “It isn’t pleasant to have [people] making fun of your work…. It was just some simple geometric shapes and a couple of primary colors, yet it seemed to drive so many people crazy. My wife… put things in perspective: ‘Maybe this isn’t really all about your little logo.’”
» . Anymore, I’m pretty skeptical of the value of branding. But 1. I’m still interested in how text and images can communicate thoughts and feelings, and 2. I like logo design as a kind of puzzle. But 3. I think justifications of branding decisions trend towards bullshit, and 4. it all feels a little manipulative. I’m also disappointed by the way branding exposes our tendencies to: 5. resist change and 6. value container over content.
» . The negative reaction to our branding of Big Omaha 2012 is one of the big 3–4 moments of my graphic design career that switched the light off for me.
. Buying shoes really stresses me out.
. Adhesive banana hook. Saving some counter space. Hacking the tiny apartment for maximum efficiency is a pretty fun, ongoing project.
. It’s been interesting, getting older and recognizing how much I’m like my dad (being naturally pretty selfish) and grandpa (being sensitive and angry about it). Except that, somehow, I’m also able to: 1. see the effects and 2. want to change. Maybe, only because I recognized those behaviors in them first.
» . Post-rationalization: finding justification for decisions after they’ve been made — “an open secret in the design industry.”
. Didn’t realize that Jasper Morrison designed the Punkt MP01 Mobile Phone, which I’ve considered switching to multiple times.
. About page posted.
» . Jesse and I decided once that an About page maybe dilutes the credibility of a journal site (mixing personal and professional). I still agree, but professionally, this feels necessary.
» . I see so many parallels between this show and teaching: 1. engineering exercises, 2. guiding people on a path to their goals, 3. opening up discussions about decision-making, 4. providing on-the-fly feedback and commentary, 5. incentivizing the best in people.
. Figured out my problem with April Fools’ Day: the Internet has turned it into a day about disappointment (good news isn’t true). Pre-Internet (in my experience anyway), it was a day about relief (bad news isn’t true). It was a reminder of how good you’ve got it.
. Designing for shareablity: “what might be best for the… product may not match what is favorable in terms of making it a… viral hit.”
» . “Every one of us, whatever our occupation, needs to become a good teacher, for our lives constantly require us to deliver crucial information with grace and effectiveness….”
» . “[Good teachers] admit that they are, in most areas of life, pretty ignorant and stupid.”
» . “Good teachers know that everyone has a lot to learn and everyone has something important to impart to others.”
» . “the more desperate we feel inside, the less likely we are to get through to others effectively.”
Be the thaw.
» . “Mistakes do not have to be absurd; they can be signs of how little information we have on which to base the most consequential decisions.”
» . Mistakes are a form of feedback.
» . “No one gets anywhere important in one go. We can forgive ourselves the horrors of our first drafts.”
» . This was an essential lesson from grad school: learning to embrace the awkwardness of showing half-resolved ideas. That a draft of something (usually a few half-somethings), shown to someone else for feedback, is better than trying to totally resolve any of it on my own first.
. The behind-the-scenes experience of a thing coming-to-be is often pretty different than the version that’s communicated afterward.
» . A major reason I originally decided the design-pro world isn’t for me is feeling uncomfortable with this contrast — between 1. the frequent (and totally natural) frustrations of designing things for other people (at Oxide) and 2. the idealized, frustration-free project page at the end.
. It’s so nice to have a place to put things like this.
. NBA torrents. I can’t watch NBA games on ABC or ESPN without cable, and I think that’s dumb.
. Approaching the end of a (productive and good but) unusually stressful week. Soon, a movie theater will be visited. Bags will be punched and ropes jumped. Junk food will be eaten.
» . I love something-happens-to-a-few-people-in-space movies. Even if RT suggests I’ll be disappointed, I’ll probably see it.
. A major, unexpected bonus of grad school was that, as a TA in Color & Composition and Typography, I learned a lot of new stuff about color, composition, and typography.
. First day volunteering with BFI at Denny Middle School.
» . These are the kinds of opportunities that a freelance schedule leaves room for, and I do really like that about it.
» . I love this setup (for everything, not just LEGO): 1. here are the elements you have to work with, 2. here are the rules of this system/series… now 3. make a new thing that fits.
. I’ve just about got my mojo back (I’d say I’m at 98%). I haven’t felt this good personally or this confident in my goals professionally since I left Omaha.
. It’s a bummer that there probably won’t be a Tron 3.
. I think it might be possible to define ‘technology’ as: a thing that works, at best, only most of the time. If it works all the time, it’s something else.
. Half the fun of building my own website is in the tweaking (solving little problems, making tiny adjustments, building it up over time). It’s so satisfying.
» . This week, figured out how to show the link colors in the sidebar only on the pages where they’re needed.
» . This follows two patterns of things I connect with: 1. all of the pieces are framed by a larger, unifying thing (the whole show fits between the setup and punchline of a single joke), and 2. it’s meta (many of the jokes are about jokes).
» . “And then one day someone will steal from you.”
» . “when people give you advice, they’re really just talking to themselves in the past.”
» . “It’s not the book you start with, it’s the book that book leads you to.”
» . “Copying is about reverse-engineering.… Don’t just steal the style, steal the thinking behind the style.”
» . “it’s in the act of making things and doing our work that we figure out who we are.”
» . “Conan O’Brien tried to be David Letterman but ended up Conan O’Brien.”
» . “I have stolen all of these moves from all these great players. I just try to do them proud,… because I learned so much from them.… It’s a lot bigger than me.”
» . “Don’t worry about people stealing your ideas. If your ideas are any good, you’ll have to ram them down people’s throats.”
» . “What we respond to in any work of art is the artist’s struggle against his or her limitations.”
» . “One day, you’ll look back and it will all make sense.”
. It’s easy to be upset with my new neighbor because he’s awake when I’m trying to sleep. But someone is always awake when someone else is trying to sleep. He’s just a dude living his life.
» . I do tend to get plenty of reading done when I can’t sleep, though.
. FTP Alias drag-and-drop uploader.
» . I can now update this page on the server in five keys: ⌘ + Space + J + Tab + Enter (activate Launchbar + select Journal.txt + send to FTP Alias). Boom.
. Having 100% weekend downtime is a measure of a good life for me.
» . This weekend, I’m working on a freelance project for Studio Matthews. The $1,200 I’ll earn feels only barely worth a lost weekend.
. As a graphic designer, on paid projects, the fun of finding a satisfying solution doesn’t always, anymore, outweigh the stress of needing to find it.
» . Teaching is stressful for me too, but comparing these two things, teaching feels worth it. For most graphic design projects, the stress usually feels artificial.
. Been journaling here for two years. It continues to be an essential exercise in making sense of thoughts and feelings. (Still working on getting the rest of the posts moved over.)
. Another problem with social media: disembodied words and actions are so easy to be upset by. It’s harder to be upset with someone you can see/hear — negotiating their life, in real time, just like you.
» . I had this thought when I figured out my new upstairs neighbor is an old guy, which makes it harder for me to be frustrated by the whole thing.
. Freeze update: I’m finding if I’m willing to initiate the thaw, people are pretty receptive to it. Be the thaw.
. I don’t think I’ll ever know what it’s like to be rich, and that’s disappointing.
. Daniel Gray graphic design blog
. Midnight Marauder, movie poster designer
. Went skiing for the first time.
» . Skiing is a rare thing where you can see people learning and failing out in the open. And where kids and adults are learning together.
» . Pretty consistently this year, I’ve had fatherhood on my mind. Watching Louie sent it into high gear. And moments like today, seeing parents skiing with their kids. I really think I want that.
» . I’ve spent way more time on this new site than I expected. Despite its straighforwardness (which was a goal), I’ve invested 80+ hours over two months in graphic design and code.
. Wondering if the second-from-the-top floor of an apartment is maybe the worst floor (noise-wise) because my upstairs neighbor doesn’t know what it’s like to have an upstairs neighbor.
» . I had no idea MY floors weren’t soundproofed until now.
. A problem with social media is that it’s so easy to interpret messages out of context — because there’s so little context to be had. The gears of Twitter/Instagram/Facebook are greased by limited information and limited understanding.
» . The warm man “has done stupid things,… he has made [dumb] decisions. [But] his weaknesses have made him immensely generous to others.”
. The electric environment: where “everything happens at once. There’s no continuity, there’s no connection, there’s no follow-through. It’s just all now.”
. Daniel Savage, illustrator/animator
. I think people use the word ‘design’ sometimes when they really mean ‘graphic design’… but what they really-really mean is ‘illustration’.
. Diff Checker tool to compare two text files
. “Pay attention to what you pay attention to.”
» . Starting today, there’s a new movie I’m excited about every week through summer. It keeps me going.
. Blue Jay
. Kermerling. That guy. Always looking out for other people.
. Teaching is it for me. I can’t believe (especially since grad school) that I considered anything else (design research, UX, full-time freelance, bailing out completely).
» . What changed my mind? It was 210: 1. teaching my own class again (vs. TAing) means getting to design projects and watching them unfold, and 2. meeting a new group of great students and seeing them start to put the pieces together for themselves. There’s nothing better.
» . I’m glad I considered those other things, though. It’s so valuable for me to get as close as I can to see how I feel when I’m there. (UX, especially, isn’t for me, and I’m happy to know that.)
» . Returning to where I started (teaching) doesn’t feel like wasted time.
» . Two downsides of teaching (part-time at a university, anyway) are 1. there’s no team to belong to professionally, and 2. it doesn’t pay particularly well. These are the big reasons I considered a corporate design gig.
» . Although, (thanks to the Lakeside blip) I think teaching in a middle school could provide both of these things, which is exciting.
. I love office supply stores.
. “What would Mr. Rogers do?” is a pretty useful trick for me to get my ego out of the way during a disagreement.
. Officially signed up to teach “Intro. to Design Process” (265a) this summer at UW. Unofficial subtitle: learning to design anything.
» . I spent a few weeks deciding whether to take on a second class. But I couldn’t-not do this. It’s a legit opportunity to engineer exactly the kind of thing I want to be teaching from here on out. Should be fun, too.
» . Stoked about this. Feels like a beginning.
. “[Schools] teach us everything other than the two skills that really determine the quality of adult life: knowing how to choose the right job for us and knowing how to form satisfactory relationships.”
. I’ll usually conclude a disappointing story (like not-getting a job) with: “It’s part of the process.” Which maybe sounds like an on-brand shtick. But it’s really what I’m thinking.
. Another thing about email: because it’s not live, two-way communication, I feel like I need to cover all the potential ways the conversation could go at once, which is hard work.
» . Can’t get enough of movies and TV about the complexities of relationships.
. A reason I like teaching so much is that, in classrooms, bullshit tends not to get anyone very far.
. I like having seagulls around, those little chubby dudes are a constant reminder of living on the coast.
. Personally and professionally, I’ve been in a (welcome and totally worthwhile) holding pattern since grad school. But I’m just about over it and ready to get serious about both.
. During fall quarter (October – December), I was eating a lot of junk food and stopped boxing. So far this year, I’ve been eating better and boxing regularly. And this week, I finally feel really good again. It took 10 weeks to get here. I’ve gotta remember that next time I want to take a break.
» . Things I wish would’ve been debunked in this book: 1. that all graphic design is important, 2. that anyone but graphic designers and the client cares much that [whatever] was redesigned, 3. that it’s possible to meaningfully critique graphic design without having been part of the process, 4. that the tiny details truly matter, 5. that portfolios aren’t highly idealized, 6. that a goal of all graphic design is to be ‘beautiful’.
» . “I can’t imagine a worse situation than having [graphic] designer’s hold sway over every aspect of our visual world. Beauty and order and understanding often come from mistakes, spontaneity, and things unplanned.”
» . “A designer with only a few tools to choose from will make better choices.”
» . It’s interesting that design lends itself to so many definitions. Why? What about design makes this possible?
. I continue to be interested in design as a small, personal thing. Maybe the smallest, most personal of things. (Rather than a commercial thing or a big-systems thing.)
» . In this summer’s classes, I’d like to do some exercises to help students feel comfortable sketching and sharing. The “I can’t draw” anxiety is totally understandable, but it can be a serious barrier.
. Still working through my book/comics collection (donating, selling, scanning, or recycling most of them). Some read, but most just skimmed. And these are the books I already decided were worth bringing from Omaha.
» . There are books I still want to keep physically. But in the end, I’d like to end up with ≤ 25 books (20% of what I started with). I’m so looking forward to being freed from a significant and really dumb burden of stuff. And for what’s left to be a meaningful collection of things I’ve actually used and specifically decided to keep around.
» . This all boils down to (at 37) no longer feeling that there’s a future version of me — a guy who has way more time than I have now — that will read these books (and play these video games and build these LEGO sets).
. And getting rid of most of my stuff feels like an essential step in getting to the next phase of my life.
» . For me, the value of exercising is at least as much about having chosen a more challenging thing, for my own sake.
» . In my life, better choices tend to reinforce more of the same. And the opposite. They’re all linked together.
» . I think about Conan’s Tonight Show goodbye pretty regularly.
. I think I’ve made peace with the Lakeside situation. I’ve been thinking maybe I lost out because I took too long to apply (9 days, mostly to give my cover letter some real thought). But it’s really more likely that they just found someone better for the job. Which I’d be cool with.
» . Still really disappointed this didn’t work out, though. Knowing now that this kind of opportunity is out there, it’s exactly what I’m looking for.
. Setting three goals for this year: 1. be a person in Seattle, 2. start making enough money not to worry about it, by 3. teaching full-time.
» . “If people aren’t thinking critically about their media consumption, that is partially their own fault — but isn’t it much more the fault of those who underfunded education?… What is casting a vote for Trump compared to enabling the phenomenon in the first place?”
Three hours is too much Bachelor.” I’d watch at least twice that.
. I’ll probably always love the toy aisle.
. The older I get, the more comfortable I am with feeling that, sometimes, the available elements just don’t lend themselves to a design that feels satisfyingly resolved. Sometimes the pieces aren’t a puzzle. I’m writing this about graphic design, but it really applies to everything.
» . There’s satisfaction for me now in having thought it through, making do, and moving on.
» . I lost out on (what felt like) an ideal middle school teaching gig (Lakeside) recently, which has been a kinda major bummer. But I think I got close to maximizing my potential inside that process, and I’m happy with that.
. I think one of the best compliments there is is that someone is a good communicator.
. I couldn’t decide if this site’s main color should be blue or red, so now it switches between them. Logic. Emotion. Makes sense. I like it.
» . The link colors are totally randomized on each page load. Why? It’s interesting to me that: 1. no two people looking at this page are seeing the same thing, 2. it’s a decision that continues to change, 3. that I don’t have control over, 4. that sometimes works and sometimes doesn’t.
» . I think, mostly, this is an unavoidable weirdness of sharing stuff online. And I think our digital selves are always constructions. But I see degrees between 1. totally buying in and 2. sharing what’s legitimately on my mind. And it’s a balance I’m constantly aware of here.
. Watching the Oscars. There’s something really special for me in hearing people talk about the things they love doing and the people that inspired them to do it.
» . They continue to be one of the best ways I know of for checking out and making new connections.
. Keeping up with RSS takes 15+ hours/week, but it’s totally worth it.
. The text on this site is about the size I end up scaling other sites to if they require any lengthy reading.
» . Conveniently, this size helps meet Annabelle’s 8–12 words-per-line rule.
» . Without a doubt, one of my favorite lessons from grad school.
. FondFont free font index
. Kirby Typography plugin. For hyphenation and typographer’s quotes.
. I’m just squeaking by financially right now, but I refuse to stop spending money on the things that I enjoy the most: movies, junk food, and nachos/tachos with friends.
. Trying a new thing on Fridays where I minimize freelance time and devote the rest of the workday to items on Tasks.txt that I tend to avoid (email, phone calls, job search, checkbook balancing, Desktop-clearing, paper mail).
» . Friday Night Taco Joe Time has evolved into a full day of doing things I need to do for me.
. I’ve started to worry about my bookcases falling on me in a middle-of-the-night earthquake.
» . Absolutely my favorite LEGO builder (the chunkiness, the small-but-accurateness, the mechanics).
. Tech company excess bugs me.
. Get Out
. “That was six years ago. Everybody changes in six years, you know. It’s just part of growth. Opinions change. Experiences change. So I don’t regret what I said. I’m not going to change what I said. But I am here now.”
» . I continue to get a surprising amount personally from the NBA.
. It’s possible that all of our feelings are really a reflection of how we feel about ourselves.
. “‘Echo chamber’ social grouping is driven… by advertising-oriented algorithms of tech companies and data brokers,… [which] produce algorithmically measurable identities — just as marketing produces consumers — and not the other way around.”
. I have the option to teach a second UW class this summer, on whatever (design) topic I’d like. This is my chance to teach the design process class I’ve been dreaming of, using the resources I’ve been collecting for years (movies, illustration, comedy, music, graphic design). But two new classes feels like a lot.
. I love being on campus.
. I will procrastinate on just about everything involving writing.
. Being able to write recommendations for students (having even a small amount of leverage in helping them get somewhere they’d like to go) is a real bonus of teaching.
Design is proactive learning.
. I haven’t cooked anything on a stove in six months (since moving into the tiny apartment).
. This new site isn’t at all finished (it’s missing pages/features, and I’ve been constantly tweaking code). I like working in increments and acknowledging the process. Any illusion of finishedness would fly in the face of what I even want this site to be or do.
. Timo Kuilder, illustrator
. I’m grateful to have freelancing for bridging gaps between phases of my life. Between 1. Oxide and grad school, and now 2. grad school and whatever’s next.
. Professional disappointment has been useful motivation for getting to the gym.
. As disappointing as the Lakeside blip has been, I’m happy to have a clearer sense of what I want professionally: teaching full-time, ideally a combo of middle school and UW. Which hadn’t crossed my mind as an option before this month.
. I’m happy with the new site. My goals were/are: 1. reduce my temptation to edit around line breaks, 2. feel freedom to write more 3. bigger, more readable text, 4. refocus on the Journal (vs. portfolio), 5. reflect that I’m moving further and further away from making images (and more towards ideas/teaching), 6. tweak some typography, 7. visually capture more of who I am.
. Once I’m past the first few minutes of a graphic design project (starting the file and importing the content), I’m way less likely to procrastinate.
. Launched v4.0 of this site (well, this page).
» . It’s the third new site/portfolio since graduation (in June). A little absurd. But I’ve learned a lot, and each has felt closer to the thing I want my website to be.
» . Trying Messenger as my contact method. It’s clickable, straightforward (not email), and not-intimidatingly-personal (not texting).
. Riverdale is the teen drama I’ve been waiting for.
. I don’t like that my professional success affects how I feel about myself, but it still does.
» . “If a book is tedious to you, don’t read it; that book was not written for you.”
» . I remember exactly when I shifted to talking about movies/TV/books/music this way. It later ended up in the Sparano Scale™. But it also precipitated a bigger shift in the way I talk about all kinds of ideas (using more ‘feels like’s, ‘generally’s, ‘maybe’s, ‘probably’s). Trying to make space for other perspectives. Acknowledging that maybe nothing is one thing to everyone and probably nothing is objectively anything.
. I have a hard time understanding maps unless I orient them to the direction I’m facing.
. Hooks (punches) and roundhouses (kicks) are so satisfying.
. Didn’t get the Lakeside job, which I’m shocked by and legit heartbroken over. I thought for sure I had this one in the bag.
» . What did I learn (what was I excited for that I’m disappointed to miss out on)? I’m ready to: 1. leave graphic design behind, 2. teach full-time, 3. ideally UW and a middle school simultaneously, 4. be part of a team of teachers, 5. meet new people, make new friends, maybe a lady, 6. not worry about money, 7. do something that I’m uniquely qualified for and excited about.
» . Of the jobs I’ve applied for in the last year, this is the second (along with micro:bit) that I thought I was perfect for, got really excited about, then managed not to get.
» . For both, I wish I could say: “What the fuck? I would’ve been perfect, and you have no idea.”
» . In the future, I’ll probably be more careful about talking about potential jobs. It’s embarrassing to feel like I’m really good at something, but for someone else (in a position to determine whether or not that’s true) to disagree.
» . I went to TITLE twice today to work out the frustration of this, and it really helped.
. A combination of middle school + teaching + design continues to feel like what’s next for me. I’m ready to get serious about teaching as the thing that I do.
. A thing more tedious/stressful than writing emails: writing letters on paper.
. The three big themes I think about (design, realness, selfishness) are all maybe just design. Realness: is the goal of this thing what it appears to be? Selfishness: is your goal for my benefit or yours?
» . “Books are made out of books.”
» . “You just have to be as generous as you can, but selfish enough to get your work done.”
» . “We don’t make movies to make money, we make money to make more movies.”
» . “To be ‘interest-ing’ is to be curious and attentive, and to practice ‘the continual projection of interest’”
» . “Whatever we say, we’re always talking about ourselves.”
» . “I don’t believe in guilty pleasures. If you fucking like something, like it.”
. An essential part of my graphic design process is saving/comparing iterations. I’ll usually change 1–2 things and save a screenshot or duplicate an artboard, do that for as many options as I can find, then compare. Am I getting closer or further away from my goals? Why does this feel right, but this doesn’t?
. I have a problem with the way memes are used to make fun of people’s mistakes.
» . Example: Aaron Gordon’s (missed) drone dunk at the Slam Dunk Contest (which also manages to make fun of Michael Jordan).
» . A good chuck of social media feels this way to me: either co-opting other people’s successes or capitalizing on their failures.
. LEGO Survey: “Compared to other people my age…” : (option 1) I own way more LEGO sets.
. I love NBA All-Star Weekend.
. Thinking through color on the new site. Grayscale continues to feel appropriately practical… but inappropriately unfriendly. So I’d prefer some color, but I can’t argue meaningfully for any specific color(s). Wondering if changing colors randomly might be it.
. Submitted my Lakeside application. I’m stoked about this, professionally and personally. It really feels like the ideal next step: 1. it puts my degree to use, 2. while not-being a graphic/UX design job, 3. teaching middle schoolers, 4. would be a solid building block on the path to LEGO, 5. gets me back on a team, 6. working with teachers (who I tend to connect with), 7. is a short commute, 8. is part-time, but 9. still includes benefits.
. I like knowing that Mad Men is out there, just waiting to be watched again.